Saturday, July 22, 2017

Minggu ini gue ada kres lagi sama nyokap, out of nowhere tiba tiba drama banget. Masalah yang sama yang gue tahan selama sekian tahun di bumbui dengan masalah baru. Kaboom. Dan lebih parahnya lagi …I got no one to talk. Been more than a year separate from those crazy fellas, every body facing their own shit.

Then i looking for distractions. If you’re sad, you can just find a funny video on Youtube or getting drown in your work. If you’re bored, you can play games or scrolling social media and then i found this

oka mantan pacar awkarin meninggal



Tuesday, July 11, 2017

When you are fully aware of being an adult, you also need to be aware of your choices along with it’s consequences

And you can not run.

Living as a woman who does not lean and does not plan to lean on anyone, it seems to be split between free and imprisoned. Free, because the decision will be nothing to intervene. Imprisoned, because whatever you decide, consequences comes to haunt.

Hidup di Indonesia ini tekanan sosialnya luar biasa, warganya suka banget yang namanya Ghibah



Tuesday, November 01, 2016

*Disclaimer; tulisan ini terinpirasi dari buku karangan ayu utami

 Semuanya berawal dari kelahiran kita di bumi, tapi… kenapa ya kita dilahirkan?


Happy Birthday To me

Tuesday, October 25, 2016

I feel lost
A funny thing that we called live is a journey with unknown path
As a God’s creature your live should dedicated to be a good prayer.
Unfortunately im not a good prayer haha

im 25 already

It feeels like i stand in the intersection , holding a map but doesnt know where to go
Im holding a map, but idk, whether its mine or maps’s fault.
Maybe im blind or the maps has no icon
I just turn around again and again at the same place....


Lets talk about depression and how to make it better

Friday, May 13, 2016

depression creeps upon you quitely. 
and you never thought about it

at the very beginning you struggle with the little things, but usually choose to ignore them
pretending like nothing happend and everything just fine

its like a headache. youll tell yourself its temporary and it will pass
thinking today just A bad day and tomorrow gonna be better

its just another bad day
you tell your self again and again

but its not. 


DEAR ILC International Language Center

Tuesday, January 12, 2016


Akhir-akhir ini gue denger kabar gak enak tentang ilc, ada yang bilang ilc penipu, ilc bangkrut, ilc fraud dll. Sejak awal aku pertama kali kerja sih emang udah ada tread yang jelek2in….


2016 resolution

Monday, January 04, 2016

I'm sorry, I know it's supposed to be published at 31st Dec or 1st Jan but 31st Dec I spent night at the office doing some stuff errrrrrrrrrr. then i spend a day to adapt at my new place. So here's what I do for at New Year's Eve!
and btw, again and again my 2016 resolution is to complete my 2015 resolution that i create since 2014 and ive been thinking from 2013 lololol.

no... its joking!!
now i still in the GALAU state. I just resign from ILC due to private reason (well, if you googling it maybe you know why wkwkwkwwk). Thanks to Allah, within a month i got a new job at XXXXXX. 

People here are so nice, kind, good and funny.... but i dont think i fit in here.... 
live as Japan's freak for years make me got a weird sense of humor and live like.... ummm what i can say maybe just too comically... i dont know.. too much fantasy maybe hahaha 

lets back to my 2016 resolution
1. i need to get SIM A SOOOOOOOON!
2. dont be lazy, lets write 5 post for a month here
3. Get JLPT level 2
4. 30 entry a month to my partime job
5. doing my best for my CURRENT JOB
6. Move On from mr xxxx and Living a better live


My story: a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step

Friday, July 17, 2015

i got this images from google.

A nice word
a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step

i always feel that i was nothing than a dust. I can NOT do this and that. I just an average common girl. I always feel insecure. 
i try.....
if i cant appreciate my self, then no one will!

i know i am still a NOTHING


i already did some step foward

not much

Aint a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step?

i will have more step
a little by little but i promise my self to never stop

ill keep my head up and smile :)

hai, Strong heart girl :D



Wednesday, June 17, 2015

Live is a game
played by fuckin lunatic
wait for another blast

This article is not for kind girls! I am warning you…………. if you have a decent and delicate heart, please don’t read this poisonous article!!!

Frida lagi bad mood!!! Dan bad mood Frida, menggigit, menggaruk, mata mendelik, tampang judes, dan jangan bikin dia ngomong!!!

Dan bad mood Frida got this email, someone I don’t know AT 02:00 AM.

                                      I will like to discuss a lucrative deal with you

Dan ini dikirim menggunkan email private hosting salah satu universitas di hungaria!!!!!
satu menit....

aha! jangan2 ini jalan buat gue kabur ke luar negeri ihihihi

this email ended with a guy with Chinese name ask me to do something with a his 19million dollar bank account and he promise to gimme 30% of it if i do this and that


okay, maybe its a fraud so..... i just stay away.


Today is first day fasting......
after sahur i decide to sleep again #what a lazy girl

and i got a bad dream

Maybe its because my home too dirty, so i decide to clean it up

after clean it up, i boil water to take a bath

i just thinking how nice and refreshing warm water with salt and aromatic scrub <3<3<3

i just close my bathroom door and i got a lot compliment email  from my editor


maybe its kinda revenge because i text him about work-thing when he sick and hospilalized lololol  xD


I have totally no idea 
why I am such a big complainer and grumpy today.

Perhaps I am just too tired for being a good GIRL

Perhaps I am just too tired for being good GIRL and alone.

Perhaps I am just too tired for being GIRL and still living in the closet. Hiding all my silly will. 

Perhaps I am just too tired for being GIRL and Dont do this dont do that

Perhaps I am just too tired for being GIRL that must be like this and must be like that

Perhaps,…………… I am just a bad mood girl!

its 11:30 AM
i need to prepape stuff before go to work.
hope nothing happend at the office


im going to KBOOOOOM ;P


Work Sick Ego.

Wednesday, May 13, 2015


“Success depends not just on talent, but also on how they integrate their skills and fresh thinking with the prevailing culture and atmosphere.”



Wednesday, May 13, 2015

I’m the one who decide where to go
The path may lead.. 
where the dreams are taking me

I’m not the best one anyway,
My mom and dad’s name weren’t called.
ya, I have failed.


University Graduate: UNESA Batch 82 and some makeup tips

Thursday, April 02, 2015

Me in my kebaya for graduation! yes, you read that right, I officially have S.Pd at the end of my name!!!
after 2 semesters struggle with my research, yeah! FINALLY :D 
For my graduation makeup, I did it myself 

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